Ocean & A Brief Reincarnation of a Girl by Sue Goyette | Review

Wednesday, 5 April 2017

I read these two poetry collections by Sue Goyette for two different classes and I don't know what to say. I loved both of these so much. They convey such different tones, and tell such different stories, but they get you. Right in the heart place. Okay, let me tell you about them.

Book: Ocean

Author: Sue Goyette

Publisher: Gaspereau Press

Pages: 80 Pages

Format: Paperback (with french flaps!)

Source: Bought for class

The ocean has never had a biographer quite like Sue Goyette. Living in the port city of Halifax, Goyette’s days are bounded by the substantial fact of the North Atlantic, both by its physical presence and by its metaphoric connotations. And like many of life’s overwhelming facts, our awareness of the ocean’s importance and impact waxes and wanes as the ocean sometimes lurks in the background, sometimes imposes itself upon us, yet always, steadily, is. This collection is not your standard “Oh, Ocean!” versifying. Goyette plunges in and swims well outside the buoys to craft a sort of alternate, apocryphal account of our relationship with the ocean. In these linked poems, Goyette’s offbeat cast of archetypes (fog merchants, lifeguards, poets, carpenters, mothers, daughters) pronounce absurd explanations to both common and uncommon occurrences in a tone that is part cautionary tale, part creation myth and part urban legend: how fog was responsible for marriages, and for in-laws; why running, suburbs and chairs were invented; what happens when you smoke the exhaust from a pride of children pretending to be lions. All the while, the anthropomorphized ocean nibbles hungrily at the shoreline of our understanding,refusing to explain its moods and winning every staring contest. 

I've been living in Halifax for about 3 years now, and the ocean is very prevalent. But I had never seen anyone describe it and characterize it quite like Sue does. In Ocean, the ocean is not a force of good, or a force of evil -- it's both and everything in between. Ocean is a life force, allowing life, death, tradition, change, creation, and destruction to flow from it. While it is a collection of poems, all working to characterize the ocean and tell part of its history, it also works as a long poem, where each poem adds a little more to the history and fills out its character a little more. 

I'm not a huge poetry reader. Or, well, I wasn't. But that didn't matter. Poetry can sometimes create a sense that you need a background in it in order to access it, but Sue's poetry invite you right in. It's so accessible, but it still makes you work for it. Not everything is handed to you on a platter, but once you dedicate yourself to Ocean, it keeps on giving. I read this a month or so ago and I am still picking it up and flipping through it. 

5/5 Stars. Please pick this up, support a truly amazing Canadian poet, and get to know the ocean a bit more.

Book: The Brief Reincarnation of a Girl

Author: Sue Goyette

Publisher: Gaspereau Press

Pages: 64 Pages

Format: Paperback (with french flaps!)

Source: Bought for class

In 2006, a four-year-old Massachusetts girl died from prolonged exposure to a cocktail of drugs that a psychiatrist had prescribed to treat ADHD and bipolar disorder; her parents were convicted of her murder. In The Brief Reincarnation of a Girl, Sue Goyette strives to confront the senselessness of this story, answering logic’s failure to encompass the complexity of mental illness, poverty and child neglect (or that of our torn and tangled social ‘safety net’) with a mythopoetic, sideways use of image and language. Avoiding easy indignation, Goyette portrays the court proceedings’ usual suspects in unusual ways (the judge, the jury, the lawyers, the witnesses and the girl’s troubled parents), evokes the ghost of the girl, personifies poverty as a belligerent bully and offers an unexpected emblem of love and hope in a bear. Like the utterances of a Shakespearean fool, Goyette’s quirky, often counter-logical poems offer a more potent vision of reality than any documentary account, her eulogy for a girl society let down renewing the prospect for empathy and change. 

This one got me right in the heart place. This long poem focused on the court case surrounding a 4 year old girl who was killed by a cocktail of prescription drugs given to her by her parents and her doctor. This was heart-wrenching, and frustrating, and made me want to rip my hair out, but then you get to the ending and it all makes sense. Everything comes full circle and you're left feeling hopeful and redeemed. Sue's got a way with words, so even when you don't know what she's saying on an intellectual basis, she makes it so clear the emotions she conveying and you get it. The characterization of the parents and the courtroom, in direct contrast with the wide eyed curiosity and innocence of the little girl worked so beautifully with one another, and those 60+ pages flew by. I read this in one sitting, and would recommend doing the very same.

This was one of the first long poems i'd ever read beginning to end and it was really interesting to see the difference in reading poems, collections, and long poems. I loved that this one told a full story. I think i'd recommend this to people before Ocean, as this one was easier to get into.

Again, 5/5 Stars. 

Happy Reading!

Moving to London | Life Update

Saturday, 1 April 2017

So, i'm moving to London for the summer.

This has all happened quite quickly, but I'm very excited. I am moving to London in 18 days. Guys. Guys. I have so much to do and no time to do it but I genuinely cannot wait for this.

My original summer plans were to find a job in Toronto and live at home, but after spending a solid 3 months emailing and applying to as many places as I could, I decided -- why not have a little fun with summer? So, I'm moving there to be an 'au pair' for some family friends, and I cannot wait to see them. 

I've travelled a little before, but mostly within Canada and the US. I went to France about 5 years ago, and that was spectacular, and i've had the travel bug ever since. I've always wanted to go to the UK and see the amazing history and culture that it holds, and I am bouncing off the walls excited. 

I am debating whether or not to start up a new blog about my adventures as an 'au pair' and my travels, or to just write about it here, so if you have strong opinions, please let me know! This will hopefully not hinder my new years resolution of being more active on this blog. I also hope to read a lot of books set in London, and maybe do a bookish tour of London. Who knows! Everything is a bit up in the air at this point.

So. 18 Days. I finish my 3rd year of University. I move into a new house. I travel across the ocean, 6000km away from home, and start a new adventure. And I couldn't be more excited.

Thank you for reading, and I can't wait to share this experience with you.

Life Syllabus

Wednesday, 8 March 2017

I love Leena Norms. She is by far one of my favourite YouTubers. Her content is so lovely and I will put on her videos in the background while I'm getting my work done, cleaning my room, or writing my to do lists. She's so thoughtful, and intelligent, and she says what i'm always thinking about saying but am too afraid to. She talks about how she uses her degree, and her relationship with books, and herself, and her body. I truly love her content.

A few weeks ago, she posted a video called "Life Syllabus" where she reimagined life as a class. She assigned a 'reading list' made up of things that she wished she had consumed earlier. She assigned homework of experiences she thinks people should have. She asked exam questions -- Questions with no answers, but more food for thought.

I loved this idea, and I decided that I was going to translate this into a post. I don't know how this will work but let's get to it.

Reading List
Things to Consume


Who Do You Think You Are?

This show follows different celebrities in every episode and traces their lineage as far back as they can. I love watching this because it's a good lesson for putting things into perspective. It creates this sense that this has all happened before and it will all happen again. 


Man on Wire

Philip Petit's "artistic crime of the century" is documented in one of my favourite documentaries, Man on Wire. I love this because we get to see this man realize his dream before it's even a possibility. His dream couldn't be a reality, and he needed to wait and build up his arsenal before it would ever happen. It's a beautiful story of perseverance and hard work

Ballet 422

Ballet 422 follows Justin Peck, resident choreographer at New York City Ballet, as he creates the company's 422nd ballet, Paz de la Jolla. I love creation documentaries, and this one has one of my favourite endings. Paz de la Jolla, which is a beautiful ballet, ends, and then Justin Peck walks backstage, and gets ready to dance in the next ballet. It's a really understated reminder to not create because of the gratification and validation that can come along with it, but to create because you love it. 



Pride tells the true story of LGSM, and their work with the miners. I love this story, of two marginalized groups coming together to help one another out. It's got great themes of acceptance and pride (i know, i know) and the way everything is portrayed it spectacular. There are a couple scenes in the dance hall that do a great job of showing that we're not all that different.


Fun Home by Alison Bechdel

If you know me, i've shoved Fun Home into literally everyones hands, and everyone comes away changed. It's a graphic memoir that deals with the realization that our parents are people and are flawed. It's Alison Bechdel's life story, dealing with her relationship with her father, her sexuality, and how the two relate. It's really interesting, since she has intellectualized all of these emotions, and it's this amazing mix of detached analysis and heart wrenchingly raw moments of truth. It's taught me so much about seeing people, even parents and heroes, as people, and recognizing that their word is not law, and they mess up as well.

Pond by Claire-Louise Bennett

Pond is this amazing short story collection that deals with how experience and history can influence how we see the world. It follows a woman who has left her high paying academic job to live in the country. I saw too much of myself in this, in regards to mental health, perfectionism, and relations with others. I think everyone should read this because it's an interesting delve into the idea that sometimes even the most simple things contain multitudes. My favourite story is Stir Fry.

S. by JJ Abrams and Doug Dorst

S. is an absolute love letter to the written word, and a feat of imagination. After reading this, my entire world expanded a bit, and I think it, very simply and in an understated way, says that it's okay to break tradition and do things differently. This book uses an actual novel, as well as marginalia and inserts to tell these three intertwining stories. It's beautiful, and it's also a lesson in patience because you need to take your freaking time with this one.


Rosianna Halse Rojas

Rosianna is amazing and I LIVE for Space Camp. She makes very thoughtful and intelligent videos about feminism, mental health, and body image. I love her Backburner series that inadvertently documents mental health through food and her making delicious looking food. I think that seeing a more stripped down version of the vloggers that are in the media, and one that promotes body positivity in a more honest and attainable manner, is a great idea.

Leena Norms, or JustKissMyFrog

Leena is maybe my favourite youtuber. I live for the days she uploads, and I honestly put on her videos in the background when i'm cleaning, or working, or doing anything else. She's so thoughtful and honest and she's not afraid to sound a bit crazy in order to ask the questions she wants to ask. And if there's one thing about Leena to know is that she asks a lot of questions. She's also made me question a lot of things in my day to day life. By watching her, I've become less passive in my own life and I think that's a good thing.


Next to Normal

This musical has actually changed my life. At it's core, it tells the story of a family coping with mental illness. It tells the story of a woman who is mentally ill coping with it, and it shows her family and the different ways that an illness can impact a life. I think understanding that mental illness is just as serious and valid as physical illness is a thing so many people need to understand, and when we do, we'll be much healthier people.

Fiddler on the Roof 

This is another one of my favourite musicals, and it's about a Russian Shtetl in Anatevka and Tevye, a milkman, and his daughters. But it's about so much more than that. It's about religious persecution, and the colliding and combining of cultures. It's about tradition and which ones to do away with and which ones will keep a culture together. It's about family, and personal limits. It's one of the most well crafted pieces of theatre i've ever seen, and it's taught me so much.

Course Work
Experiences to Have

See A Counsellor

It's hard, being open and vulnerable in front of someone who you don't know but you're also paying. Whoever your therapist is, they know how hard it can be. But trust them. It's a huge challenge to be able to see a therapist and be able to be so open on the first try, but once you've surpassed that, and are able to be honest to someone else and to yourself about how you feel, you'll get a much better hold on your emotions.

Do Something Just for You

This might just apply to me, but I know that I get so much validation from telling people i'm going to do something and then never following through. Sometimes it's freeing even, to do things for myself, and I think that everyone should have that experience. Whether it's joining a club, or wanting to complete a project, by doing something that no one else knows about, you're doing it for you, and and you have no other expectations

Brace yourself for a situation

How to Ask for Help

I've left this intentionally vague. Whether it's seeing a banker about financial help, or asking a family member or mentor for help on a big project, I think it's so important to think about how to best ask for help. It's a vulnerable moment for both people, and thinking about the best way logistically to ask for help is important. It's also a challenge as to how you face rejection, and I think that both things are feelings we should be prepared to face.

This was so much fun to write, and I hope that you enjoyed reading this. Please leave me your thoughts in the comments below, and feel free to do this as well! Thanks for reading, and have a wonderful day!

#FrenzyPresents Spring 2017 | Event Recap

Thursday, 2 March 2017

I was so excited to get an invite to what would be my third Frenzy Presents, and I was even more excited when I realized that I could actually make it. I love the Frenzy Presents previews so much, and I always love getting together with my blogger friends and seeing what the community is excited about.

I showed up and immediately spotted Patty from Bookish Wanderlove, who did a double take and practically shouted "Oh my god you're alive!". This was kind of the theme for the day because apparently living in Nova Scotia is like living on a different continent. It was amazing to get to see and embrace Patty, who I first met two years ago at the BlogOntario Meet Up. Then I got to see Joey from Another Afterthought, Nova from Out of Time Book Blog and Shelly from Read Sleep Repeat who are some of my favourite people on the planet. They inspire me to create and to read and I loved getting to see them.

Jesse, Alexa, Patty, Joey, Ri, and I in front of the daisy wall

We headed upstairs to the amazing HarperCollins Canada offices, which I love by the way -- Have I mentioned that? The room we were in was beautifully decorated, with Ramona Blue bunting and lots of lovely spring time decor. There were snacks on snacks on snacks, and I saw Amanda from Brain Books and Brawn, and a few other friends before we got onto the books (Which i'll get to in a minute!).

I also just want to talk about the lovely and kind people I met at this event. I met Tina from Indigo Teen, who was so great to chat with as I finally got to freak out about the Philip Pullman news with someone. I also met Jesse from Books at Dawn, Ri from Hiver et Cafe, and Alexa from Alexa Talks Books. I love getting to chat with other bloggers about what is good and what I need to be catching up on.

Okay, onto the books!

Julie Murphy's newest book is one of my most anticipated for 2017, and I was so excited to get an arc of this in my swag bag! Ramona Blue deals with familial responsibilities, sexuality, and friendships. I am reading this one now and i'm in love with it.
Release Date: May 9th

I had heard about this online and hearing the ladies rave about it made me so excited to read it. It's inspired by the Black Lives Matter movement and it follows a girl in the aftermath of her friend being fatally shot by a police officer. It's being called a modern classic and I'm very interested in it.
Out now!

Okay so the Magic in Manhattan series was my shit as a kid. I read those books from waaaay too young an age, but I kind of thought Sarah Mylnowski had fallen off the map, only to learn that she has this new, HILARIOUS sounding book coming out, but that she's been publishing this whole time. I cannot wait to dive into the ARC that I received!
Release Date: July 11th

I've read a bit of Alice Kuipers and i've had mixed feelings but the narration in this seems really interesting. From what i've heard, it's a girl's life split in two, following the way things would have gone had she made different decisions.
Release Date: April 11th

This cover had me swooning from the first second I saw it. The title treatment. The paint dripping. The Mockingjay-esque feel to it. And the plot sounds super interesting. I'm not a huge fantasy person, but the story of twins having to compete for the throne in the wake of their father and older brothers assassination. I'm itching to get into the ARC i've got.
Release Date: June 6th

Another fantasy duology that sounds ah-mazing. It was pitched as a story about sisters, fae, and set in a dark "deliciously corrupt world of the fae and featuring two truly unforgettable heroines." Count me in.
Release Date: April 11th

WHO ELSE IS DYING FOR THIS?? I read This Savage Song over the summer without the knowledge that it was going to be a duology, and I'm so excited to get back to the story of Kate and August and their world of monsters. I want this book yesterday.
Release Date: June 13th

The big gay european road trip in the 1800s. Need I say more?
Release Date: June 27th

I want to thank Suman from HCC Frenzy for inviting me to this event and always being so kind to me. And thanks to the friends I got to see for embracing me after two years, and the friends I made for being so open and lovely. I am so excited for all these books being released this spring and early summer. Now to read them!

Thanks for reading until the end, and i'll see you next time! Happy reading!

Reading Long Books

Saturday, 11 February 2017

I read Bleak House by Charles Dickens this semester for a class. Just let me reinforce that: by about 4 weeks into the semester, I had finished the absolute TOME that is Bleak House. All 900 + pages of it. And if you asked any of my friends, they would tell you how frustrated I was by it, and how by the end of it, I was done with having Charles Dickens control my life. The reading requirements for that book dictated when I could and couldn't go out, when I went to sleep, when I woke up, when I got other work done. Essentially Dickens and I are in a relationship right now, and it's complicated.

But it got me thinking of the relationship we have with long books. Bleak House is a multiplot novel, so not every section is ultimately fulfilling, and that took some getting used to. In an age where we really are obsessed with and seek out instant gratification, this book, and most long books like it, make you wait. They test your patients and your stamina -- they want to see if you can make it to the end. 

But when then, if we are all so fascinated with reading as many books as we can, building up our Goodreads shelves, and hitting that yearly challenge, do we spend time reading these tomes?  Is there something inherently challenging in these books? Or do we just do it for the bragging rights that, "Yeah, I read (Insert title of very long book here). Oh it was nothing!" I personally am scared of these very long books, and I think Bleak House has helped me past the fear. I was always scared that I wouldn't get it, or I wouldn't have the commitment to actually finish it. But I did, and while I won't be reading any more until the summer, I've put together a list of books i'm not afraid to read now:

This book terrfies me, because i'm not the biggest consumer of fantasy, but also look at how long it is!! And there are still two more!! But the amount of things i've heard about this, and the amount of close friends that have read and loved it make me want to pick it up. So who knows what this summer will bring.

I have seen the film, and i've read Jean Rhys Wide Sargasso Sea and loved it, but I have just shied away from this one. It's honestly not that big in comparison (only about 500 pages, give or take editions), and I know that once I read it it will be a new favourite.

I have seen this one floating about and my best friend is currently in the midst of reading it, and loving it. It sounds a bit witchy and i'm so intrigued by it, so I know that it's now on my to read list.

And here it is. The Brick. I have wanted to read this for so long, and I was too intimidated by the length and the sheer amount of story there is. I love the musical and I know that it's very different, but I still love these characters, and if I get to any of these soon, it'll most definitely be this one.

What are your thoughts on reading long books? Brag a little, and let me know the longest book you've read in the comments! Thank you if you've read until the end, and happy reading!

My Dream Crate | Loot Crate

Saturday, 21 January 2017

Note: This is not sponsored content. All opinions are my own.

I've known about Loot Crate for a long time, and I've even subscribed for a time a few years ago before I moved away for school and all my money suddenly disappeared. But, I was a approached a few weeks ago by the lovely folks at Loot Crate, who asked me to put together my Dream Crate! I was able to choose a theme, and all the items that would go in the box, and I had so much fun with this, you have no idea.

I did a bit of Googling to see what other people were putting together for their Dream Crates, and it might just be the influence that school is having on me, but I decided to make my theme Bibliophilia, or the love of books! So i've put together a ton of bookish goodies  for my Dream Crate! Take a look, and let me know what you would put in your Dream Crate? Or even better, make your own post and link it to me in the comments!

A Poem for Every Night of the Year, edited by Allie Esiri

Okay, I saw this book when I was browsing the Book Depository, and was totally taken by the cover (Seriously, how Instagram worthy is that?)  and I love these kinds of books that are something to be experienced over a longer length of time. I also love poetry, and I think that some poetry isn't always super accessible. And in the same way that Loot Crate introduced me to a ton of new fandoms when I was subscribed, I think that learning about new poets and poems is amazing.

Doctor T. J. Eckleburg by Firuty

This might be one of my favourite things that would be in my Dream Crate, and honestly, I'm thinking about buying it for myself. I love The Great Gatsby, and even if people haven't read it, it is a staple in the American literary canon, and most people have seen the film because hellooooo, Leonardo DiCaprio. In the book the eyes are a symbol for the eyes of God, looking out over the Valley of Ashes, and I love the idea of my tote bag looking out at everyone on campus, or in the produce aisle.

11oz Luna Lovegood Mug by printsmadewithLOVE

I mean, if you're going to ask me to make a nerdy Dream Crate, something Harry Potter has to be included, right? I love Luna, and this is one of my favourite things that she says in the series. I love the colours of the mug, and honestly, I love mugs. I have far too many of them, but I love them none the less, and one more is okay, right?

Postcards from Penguin: 100 Book Jackets in One Box 

I've started a project this year, which is to send more letters to my friends and family. I've had my eye on these postcards since the first time I spotted them and how cool would it be to open this up and go through all of the book titles and see which ones you've read and haven't read? Send a postcard of your friends favourite book to your friend? I love post cards, and the Penguin covers are so clean and nice!

2017 Biblio Calendar

I have this weird love of stationary and calendars and planners, and once I saw the art work in this one, I know I needed to include it in my Dream Crate. I haven't gotten myself a 2017 calendar just yet, but this is one strong contender for me. All the art work is black and white and super clean and minimalistic. Ugh, it's gorgeous 

"Pages" Print 

I don't know if you can tell, but I love these prints from Obvious State. This one is one from one of my favourite Shakespeare plays, the Tempest. It's also got the beautiful image of the open book, leading to the sinking ship and Prospero's island. It's such a beautiful piece of art, and I can imagine any bibliophile loving this.

Thanks so much to Loot Crate for reaching out to me to make this post! I had such a great time! Let me know what your dream Loot Crate theme would be, or what you would include in a biblio-themed box? Thanks for reading, and i'll see you soon!